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I don't miss you

How do I miss you
When I never forget to remember you?
It hasn't been easy
It never would be, I know.
I find us in the mellowing pages of memory,
As green as we used to be.
I try to shut my eyes
In desperate attempts of escaping what's real
But how do I shut my heart where your voice rings deep?!
I am fine as I promised
I will be fine as you wanted
But there's a fine line between being fine and being me
I guess I am going to miss that.
And yes, I don't miss you like I thought I would
For I can never forget you.
And I know that's how you feel as well
I do.


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