Swings of a rhapsodic mind

Specs of lightening fill her room and her heart with dread The leaves, she hears them rustle She closes her eyes shut in the hope to walk past the gloom Her pillow helplessly binds my vision But, it's all the same A five year in her has been fighting since decades. She tries to hold onto the belief That all would end like a nightmare But, the thunder in it's ferocious gaze Withers her soul And she sinks back in time She decides to fight no more She stares at the blank walls shadowing her dread And as lightening strikes, she let's her brittle heart break apart The shattering sound within her drowns what the thunder holds!

Those silent whispers untold and unheard Clog those blank spaces I cling by Some day when I look back at those Some day when I only have them as ours Will they still be mine? Will they still echo deep within my heart Will they still revolutionize my world? For, the point in time where I stand, I have them to hold on to. At times I grow tired, Beaten by life Sunk in worries And as I cling to those blank spaces Silence becomes defeaning. But I rise and smile at those memories And I count my life in them.

       (1) I fell for your pain, The hurt in you kept me awake in the dead of the night. What was it thumping hard inside me, I wondered. I could see what you had to let go Could feel each ounce of your pain Yet, I wanted to say it loud I am there, I won't judge, Trust me for once. I would take away your fears. And be there like a lurking shadow But I couldn't be the reason of your hurt. Couldn't be the tears you would shed. So I sealed my thumping heart, As i passed you a smile And I smiled a smile which wasn't one. (2) I hid it deep, deep down somewhere where the light couldn't reach Between the folds of my existence It's sweet vigour kept me alive Yet, I turned it into ice Not letting it melt For I feared I would hurt you beyond repair I run short of words My voice drowns in silence But my heart knows it all You aren't someone different I feel like calling you by my name And yet, words deceive me But I paint my love in silence

It was spring in the woods but my heart lay barren The breeze cut my wounds deeper and deeper Youth lured me to its dead fall I wish I had learnt the game while i still could breathe I knew not to live for myself My life was a blessing meant for others But little did I know, i was fated for a timeless death Between existing, counting days and minutes and dying in seconds and hours, I shed my leaves, my fruits inflicted venom And life got carried away It is once again Spring in the woods and my heart is barren They barely see me exist What am i? , I ask myself And the breeze sailing by smirks with disdain You are wood, a plain dead log, it whispers And I gulp my frozen tears And wait for my fated end!